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2009-10-15T01:57:00.001+08:00

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2009-10-13T05:28:00.002+08:00

Shania Twain - You're Still The One lyrics

(When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

Bridge:
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going ~~strong~~

Chorus:
(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

(Bridge)
(Chorus)
(Chorus)

I'm so glad we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
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i dont know why but this song keep playing in my head =)

2009-10-13T02:51:00.002+08:00

i'm here to reveal something.

Remember i ever blog abt me at Haji Lane for shoot? Click Here

it's actually for Female magazine, 50 Gorgeous people 2009. yup, i'm in =) magazine will be out in November issue.

fitting at bebe vvc ltr. start of busy wk till next yr.

Loves

2009-10-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

can money really make ones happy? seriously?

personally, i dont think money can really make me happy. i opt for stability. be happy with what i have. 3 meals per day is good enuff. simple life. =)

if extra money pours in, i'll treat it as a treat. naive thinking? hmmm.....

if u r the opposite of me, u have lots of money, r u happy with wat u have?

2009-10-09T04:53:00.002+08:00

oh my goodness, i'm dying at F21 official web.

if i have credit card i might swap US$105.36 = SG$146.29

for 7 items. hmmmm super worth it everything is less than S$20. Wohoo~ gonna wait for next mth pay, gonna spend, need to give my wardrobe a makeover too.

2009-10-09T02:50:00.003+08:00

seriously i dont know what to tok to u abt.

"hows ur day"
"hows work"
"doing what"

these 3 sentences i listen almost everyday. it kinda a routine. but if no longer tgt, it became a habit. weird. seriously, wats wrong here?

maybe dis r/s is so long tat i'm done w my speech,till i really dont noe wat to tok to u abt. i know tat i can be quiet but u r quieter, guess tats y theres long pause. normal?

u said "happy anniversary". i got no impact. rmb i used to be kiasu and said tat to u on the dot. i havent been doing tat for the past 2 mths. y? is it due to the brk ups? is it due to so many disappointments? is it i just cant be bothered? maybe i have too much negative tots in all these?

1 step at a time.
"Standby" the pre and post brk up

tat's wat i always tell myself.

am i used to u not ard dis whole wk?
life isnt as interesting or is it i'm no longer interesting?
maybe its just the whole menses coming thing gettin my nerves?

dont ask me what i wan/expect, i am a sale associate not a teacher who can teach n guide u, tiring job.

dis wk time spend : 4hrs

normal? i dont know.

ahhhh wat the hell is wrong w me?

2009-10-08T18:23:00.000+08:00

Nothing interest me lately,

everything is just the same.
i need new change

i wanna go gym, its draggy
i wanna go work, its draggy
i wanna go tanning, just so lazy to travel

i tink i shld stay at hm and rot my ass.

2009-10-06T23:46:00.001+08:00

i'll give my blog a makeover pretty soon. so yup, stay tune. worse, i might even change URL lol.

2009-10-03T01:54:00.003+08:00

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

how ironic is it?

hate it when my spy told me things, hate to dig dirty thing out. worse, the person din apologize. if u did it, and i follow, i'll be classified as taking revenge. *sigh* dis journey is indeed tiring. promise broken time n again. when will one learn?

If u love me, why do u even do it?

2009-10-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

IF u r a Taoist, some of u might carry this tailman in an ang bao right? yea i have tat. i lost it very often. so very seldom i will bring it out, really a hassle. so i left it hm. Guess wat i still can lost it. WTF!

dis type of thing got the heart can liao, why go tat extra mile to do such a "hardworking job"? yea yea, repay dis n tat, safety la, blah blah blah~ might as well ink on body or make it like a card? less trouble. tsktsk. i hate carrying tat. super!!!!!!!

2009-09-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

for some reasons i dont know why aft i go to the sauna till now i felt like puking. wtf is wrong with me?

2009-09-22T03:09:00.001+08:00

2 tumbs up! gonna start to appreciate coco chanel's works. same time check out coco no.5

2009-09-22T00:09:00.008+08:00

last weekend is a busy week for me. went to this shophouse along Bali Lane, behind Arab Street. the shophouse which i walked past and told mat "eh, nice hor?"

look like some karang guni store right?

so i went here for shoot.

look inside.

Sheraton to collect cake

see all the blinging lights
Big man showing his big muscle
Maria peeling carrot skin

work is super boring, ghost town. whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~

imaging someone leave, someone came,someone leave , came again. i couldnt find the words just now over the fone. now i remembered "once bitten twice shy"

suddenly i dont like it now.

once again, i gotta be mentally prepared. i'm feeling it coming, like again?

曾美丽但还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步自我陷入
究竟是笑是哭
怎样爱也还是不满足...............

2009-09-18T01:00:00.004+08:00

SALE!

Let's see,

u came across here on the 16th? using Pacnet or Singnet? 210.24.234.7 or 119.74.229.199 or 220.255.7.159 or 210.24.234.154

So hardworking to look thru every lil single detail of my life since year 2005 to current year?

mum gave me a key. WELCOME TO ADULTHOOD! TADAH~

i got a commitment here. as of end of sept i'll be handling my own expenses feeling the stress oreday. like mat says is true.

more commitment = higher salary

sound like econ isnt it? dunno how to survive with such a pathetic pay, urge to hold a second job.

Exactly 1 year ago, this day, marks u leaving us peacefully.

how am i suppose to forget last sept u were struggling with ur life, admitting in n out of the hospital. tube being inserted into ur body. stupid heart rate screen thingy right beside ur bed showing how slow is ur heart beating, how u struggling for air. how much pain u gotta bear?

how am i suppose to forget the night b4, me,angel n eve stayed over ur place. tat last night uncle was holding u to the toilet. the last night i called u "ah gong!"

How am i even suppose to forget it was 7+am fierce aunt came waking me up saying u aint waking up, "how long do u wanna slp?" . i cant forget tat morning she performed CPR on u, us calling u. i really cant forget u lying there motionlessly, ur cold skinny body. i cant forget tat morning, mummy came rushing down, giving up on u "pa, u go lo, we wun call u back anymore". i really couldnt believe it even when paramedic sent u to hospital, when paulna msged me " we r preparing his death cert", all the chinese rituals thing. till the day, u r suppose to be cremated, i saw ur bone in the urn. it really hit me tat u are gone.

i miss u nagging at me when i am trying to bake cake
i miss u asking me whether have i taken my dinner
i miss u sitting by the sofa, ur favourite seat.
i miss u waving goodbye

i miss u.......

u gone but i think u r somehow is still ard.

2009-09-16T02:22:00.004+08:00

150909

Meet him up in the late evening for dinner at xing wang, at the same time make use of my bdae voucher.

head over to PGN M1 to do redemption of my Sunperk point, down to Singtel to make do some clarification of my plan, sadly it is not ready yet so the receptionist cant help much.

down to PGN to look for my belated bdae cake. lol. dined at Canele =)

Above: tiramisu; ok la, not bad

Above: those lil dessert is too sweet for both of us

Thanks for everything =)

Time Traveller Wife a bit confusing, need to re-watch it again, overall 4/5*, 3 hrs movie

2009-09-15T01:32:00.009+08:00

oh ya,
i just dye my hair using Liese, tat bubble foam dye. well, it's work really well but the ammonia smell is overpowering. it comes with hair lotion too. leave on. cool~

golden no more~

Car Rental Expierence

Friday is such a bad day, booked an appt to pick up the car from amanda, suppose to pick up car from at 2pm end up when we reached there, one of the colleagues, Peter, told us the hyundai matrix wouldnt is not in yet cos the person extend the time but it will only be in ard 4 plus.

trust me i am super pissed, want us to wait for 2hrs? As if we're not working lidat lo. den we asked for another car, he suggested Fiat Idea, more ex by $10 which will make it $210. fine. we took it, so 1st thing me n mat did was to pump petrol, drove to SPC ard bukit timah, just when we were abt to drove off, the car gave up on us, we called peter, he came and checked the car released batt is flat soon, so he drove back Fiat Idea back while me drove back his toyota to tuft city again. this time he gave us Fiat Punto, return us back $30, which means it's $180. Fiat IDea was full tank after to pump petrol, so we wanna claim from them, then they gave the what-the-fuck expression, luckily the Fiat Punto is full tank and we only need to return 1/4 tank. aiya, overall they r not flexible.

the car din gave way, instead the stuff inside the car suck, super old. seats dirty, the compartment beside the drive seat has to use an old unwanted key as an lock. my goodness, the car has dents and scratches. tsk tsk~ just take lo.

anyway, return back the car yesterday, he found out theres a scratch, NB! me n mat dont rmb hitting anything, end up gotta pay them $170, $120 for scratch and $50 for loss.

Seriously after this incident, me n mat decided to never rent car there.

Friday 11 sept

drove nice aunt to my ah ma place
bring ah ma n mummy to sheng shiong n ntuc
send ah ma back
home

Saturday 12 sept

drove nice aunt n mat to ah ma place
home
St James
send GF n BF home
home

GF got me these~
Bangles~
and more Bangles~
Stitch~

Sunday 13 sept

woke up late
pick up mat @ CPT

Comex-want to sign up MIO Plan, singtel sale associate need mummy IC Card cos i'm underage and phone under mummy name, mat drove to temple take mummy IC did a quick autorisation letter, back to comex, sign up for Mio Home f0r $39.90,new hp plan with singtel, mat bought me a BB bold as a birthday present =) BB Bold is dirt cheap.

BF bought this...

Pass mat the car so more convienence for him

late Dinner - with nice aunt;uncle;angel n eve; fierce aunt n piggy @ bencoolen. mat couldnt join cos he needs to rush hm n to check out sales.

fierce aunt n piggy sent me home

Monday 14 sept

*clock strike 12am, mat called, asked me to look down the kitchen cos he's below. of cos i dont believe la cos we always like to punk each other mahx. he drove us to ECP slack, Changi see Ducks, home*

woke up late
Send back the car *refer to the top of my car rental expierence*

Check out his "sargent face"

cabbed down to habourfront
buy batam tix

Waiting for departure, BF died at DFS

hello Siloso
hello Palawan

Batam
walk walk see see look look only bought a fake burberry inspired box to put all my cosmetics and a fake LV inspired passport holder for myself.

took the last ferry back

home

Thanks for all for the msgs via hp or facebook. =)

2009-09-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

i am officially an old fuck.

not going to Turi Beach anymore after watching tons of scary video clips on youtube and siti's video. super eerie, "dirty". somemore 7th mth not over yet. better to be safe than sorry.

will upload some pics asap =)

2009-09-12T00:15:00.001+08:00

Buttered on wednesday with mat.

had a bad day today totally screw up half of my day. not due to work but due to car rental. messy bunch of ppl. super not proactive.

2009-09-09T04:34:00.001+08:00

2009-09-09T02:49:00.002+08:00

i'm currently watching youtube, listening to both my fave singers; stefanie sun new song 愚人的国度 and kelly clarkson concert.

愚人的国度

爱是愚人的国度
看我们演的好辛苦
是你所谓的领悟
我不懂　我不哭
看悲欢喜怒每一步
是疲惫还是依赖的束缚
来你能不能再重复
让我懂　让我哭
再让时间停住
再把字看清楚
不必再说假如
我　唱过　天地荒芜
借口　不能碰触
爱是愚人的国度
不能自拔　不懂退出
我们都回不去最初
曾美丽　但还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步自我陷入
究竟　是笑　是哭
再让画面停住
把自己看清楚
不必再说假如
我　穿过一地荒芜
幸福　不能碰触
爱是愚人的国度
不能自拔　不懂退出
我们都回不去最初
曾美丽　但还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步自我陷入
究竟　是笑　是哭
我们都回不去最初
怎样爱　也还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步　自我陷入
结局　是笑　是哭

2009-09-07T23:13:00.004+08:00

this week marked my last week of being 20 =( ok... i'm a old fuck soon.

had some programmes laying up ahead. gonna be a fast week, i dont know if its a good thing or not =(

let's see

6 sept 09

worked, Gymed, Stayover at ah ma place with the 2 kids, watch ice age 3 n G-force till 3am.

7 sept 09

woke up at 9.15am for ah gong chinese 1 yr anniversary of departure.
went hm with mat abt 12 plus, research on Turi Beach Resort
for my big day, and also looking for good price to rent a car over the weekend.

Actually, this place is ideal for a short getaway. if next yr i got too much money i dont mind going to Bali for my birthday =) say only la..

Found 1 @ Tuft City, it called Ace Car Leasing. rented hyundai matrix for $200nett from friday to monday. FYI: if u still under probation, no worries, still can rent =) and u know sometime u need to desposit money so they will reserve the car for u or some will require u to put in xtra cash for dunno wat stuff de, THIS ACE LEASING DONT REQUIRE IT AT ALL!

Turi Beach - Booked
Rental of car - Booked

=)

mat went to work and me went out with the 2 kids, my nice aunt n my mum to bugis. finally eat my scissors-cut-scissors, Shoickness! ard evening, all went back ah ma hse agn, slacked watched tv. told ah ma i'll drive her n my mum to go sheng shiong buy her groceries, been a while since i brought her out.

home.

8 sept 09

Work
Gym
Home

=)

9 sept 09

Work
Arena. definitely hopping to Rebel a while.
Home

10 sept 09

Work
Gym
Home

11 sept 09

Pick up car
Work
Bring ah ma to Sheng Shiong
Home

12 sept 09

Work
Dinner with 2 kids, mat, fierce aunt and her bf (aka Piggy)
Pick up GF from somewhere
Meet andrian n co. @ Zouk
Supper
Home

13 sept 09

wake up late?
picnic with mat?
Comex with mat,fierce aunt, piggy
geylang parsa malam (sound good....)
Home

14 sept 09 (officially an old fuck.....)

Photoshoot casting
Return car
Train down to Tanah Merah
Ferry to Batam
Rot at Turi Beach whole day

15 sept 09

Wake up
Ferry back to SG
Home
Rest

16 sept 09

Drag myself to work =(

Notes:

No Chalet
No Clubbing (birthday)
No Open House (buffet)

Yea... none of tat type of thingy this yr. i dont like the attention to be just on me cos i'll be shy-Shy-SHY (i mean it, i blush in few seconds), Chalet; everyone doing it, dont want it to be just because i am 21. Clubbing birthday celebration; cant afford to open bottles no money $$$. Open house; my place too small, ah ma place slightly bigger but nahx, i scare something might happen; not in term of frens drunk, more like my useless uncle in the hse might have some uninvited guests.

Basically, i'm more concerned about myself being a bad host, u all know me as someone who is "Anything-want-la" or "help-yourself-la". so i mostly likely dont know how to entertain guests =) so better be safe than sorry. maybe next time got chance i open house lo. =)

2009-09-02T01:10:00.001+08:00

isnt it cute?!

too bad it has to pass on due to cancer

FYI:

Nyac one of the two famous otter-holding-hands YouTube stars and long-time resident of the Vancouver Aquarium died on September 23, 2008. She was one of the last surviving sea otters from the 1989 Exxon Valdez oil spill. Nyac came to the Vancouver Aquarium in 1989 as one of the few young survivors of the oil spill. She not only survived the traumatic event, but she overcame incredible odds and became the only known survivor to have successfully had a pup. On November 9, 1993, Nyac gave birth to a healthy female pup, Kipnuk. This event was considered miraculous due to the internal damage she had sustained. During her 20 years of life, she won the hearts of members, visitors, volunteers and staff at the Vancouver Aquarium. She inspired many people as they learned about sea otters and the issues that face them in our waters today. She was diagnosed with chronic lymphocytic leukemia a few days before her death. This cancer has not been previously reported in sea otters, but it is associated with contact with petroleum in other species. So even in death, Nyac will continue to provide vital information on the long-term effects of oil exposure.

2009-09-01T12:27:00.002+08:00

it's raining now and i'm still lazz ard my bed, i managed to find the song tat i like years back.

Rain - Breaking Benjamin

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

2009-09-01T11:43:00.002+08:00

i'm currently attacked by flu bugs, bins and tons of tissue papers are my best frens. slp from 9.25pm-10.45am. wohoo~ been a while since i slp like a pig. gonna visit a doc ltr to get a MC, draggy to go down >.<

2009-08-31T01:56:00.002+08:00

Ohh
Ohh
She was standing there by the broken tree
Her hands were all twisted
she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light
coming over, as she
spoke with a voice that
disrupted the sky
She said 'Come on over to a bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms
and you'll know you're save
Let me sign
let me sign

Robert Pattinson : Let me sign

Ohh
Ohh
Standin by a broken tree
Her hands are all twisted
She's pointin at me
I was damned by light
Coming all over I see
She spoke with a voice and
Looked up at the sky
She said hold on lover
Yeah, don't be ashamed
I will wrap you in my arms
and only said
Let me sign
Let me sign

Came across a fren of mine.... check out some of the related video. how true is it?

2009-08-28T00:17:00.002+08:00

my all time favorite songs:

1)Hey Delilah

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

2) 1,2,3,4

1 2, 1 2 3 4- 
Give me more lovin' than I've ever had, 
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad, 
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not, 
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad, 
I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you. 

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4 
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you 
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you) 
I love you. 

Give me more lovin' from the very start, 
Piece me back together when I fall apart, 
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends- 
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best that I've had, 
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you. 

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4 
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you 
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you) 
I love you. 
(I love you) I love you. 

You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4 
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you 
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you) 
I love you.

(I love you) I love you 
1, 2, 3, 4
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you

*so sweet right? hahaha. 1 mth of not clubbing really burn my brain. i made plans in my life for next yr =) finally i found something realist. anyway, i decided to go taiwan with him next yr march waiting for gd promo*

2009-08-21T17:52:00.003+08:00

yesterday was kinda the last nite he coming over to slp cos saturday fasting mth. he always say i molest him every morning. but seriously i dun rmb a single thing. lazy off day for me. wanted to go tanning but it was raining like elephants n dinosaurs.

wanna mit him up ltr but he say he will be working. i miss slpy smell.

2009-08-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

Finally i'm done with Midnight Sun. im tired. dun feel like toking. =)

2009-08-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

list of things tat we havent been doing/ wanting to do but yet to accomplish

Picnic
watch movie on laptop till late
wake up late
Nap in the afternoon
really slp
24hr tgt
eat at chompchomp
camping at ECP
"candle light" in the rm

tats all i can think of. =)

2009-08-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

happy 600th post.

anyway, went to the gym earlier. ran for 48mins/ 6km. previously was 28min/ 4km and even more previous was 20min/ 3.89km

ok, i'm trying to keep track of my timing. 4.4% of total fat mass, sound cool huh BUT it is WEIRD. i have tummy n flabby arm so fucking disgusting. something is wrong with the machine.

cant go for AHM =(

2009-08-13T01:30:00.002+08:00

mat help me kill roach agn, imaging the day b4 he was mentioning it, NB!

went for casting at flyer but i din go for Butter due to work.

Ling hui ask me go St james, Andrian ask me go Zouk. at first i reject ling hui den aft tat in late evening i reject andrian too... hahahaah u guys noe i cant resist Zouk rite?

but still i din go, i'm dead tired. imaging slp at 6.20am, woke up at 9.20am den work till 7.30pm. if i still go shake i think i can be zombie oready. but if weekend go shake i dun mind!!!! wahahahha

2009-08-11T01:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes players stop being players because they have heart,
sometimes broken-hearted stop being broken-hearted because they have play.

How true is that? 100% =)

2009-08-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

went to arab st n haji lane with GF. i think it might be our hangout soon. we died at the crystal shop. Biz idea otw..... went back shop to take my charger n my pouch den head to queensway to get a shoebag.

actually ltr in the evening i quite bz, need to go for 1 casting and 1 interview at 2 different location plus go gym. end up 1 of the interview was cancelled. so i guess i'm not tat packed oready. so aft casting i'll head down to gym. i need to cut out my lovehandle. disgusting shit!!!!

2009-08-10T02:03:00.003+08:00

Happy belated national day! (3yrs 5mths)

Only love SG once a yr.

SOL getting higher, Pay getting lower.

money is an issue between us now. we din quarrel over money but it seems like the alphabet M-O-N-E-Y can make us really stress out. looking at him stress over his financial problem n work, there's nth i can do. i'm so in the "chiong-ing mood" whereby i wanna hold 2 jobs. SG is really an ex place to stay no wonder ppl is leaving dis country. luckily me n him has no plan for anything (things such as settling down etc....). personally, we feel that we havent "play/see" enuff yet. main point, we cant even feed ourselves.

anyway, i just sign up for California Gym @ Town. Did researchs by asking loon n my ex APSSB classmate. from 11 august onward, i have not excuse not to go gym/run anymore ( lovehandle and tummy getting bigger ) . seriously it is ex compared to a normal gym. so if u wanna sign up, really must go and think first.

if i go outside run, it is FOC, but how often do i do it?
ANS: SELDOM, i'll think "aiya today tired, tml lor / run where? sian eh."

if i can go clementi gym, it is near.
ANS: yes, super near, but i dun like to run on trendmill facing the mirror and my reflection staring back at me, lifeless~

If i go Jurong Gym
Ans: huh~~~~~~~ So far!!

u see, i can come up tons of excuses. therefore if i go cali,

- it is near workplace
- less than 5 mins walk
- sometime Mat goes to the gym there
- provide towels (bathing + excercise)
- showering facilities (include shower gel + Shampoo)
- lessons (those i wan is FOC)

consider worth while, afterall it's town, rental fee high, they must earn a bit oso. but 1 thing tat i dont like abt some of em is tat, they are quite agressive or would i say they like to hard-sell. hmmm ......

2009-08-07T17:52:00.002+08:00

some of you might noe, i am a twilight saga fan. i was researching for new moon which will be out on 20 nov 09 if i'm not wrong.

i can imaging the part where edward left bella and i'm gonna cry like hell.

kelly clarkson will be singing new moon song.

Title : Did You

You left me standing there
You didn't even care
You just walked away
I felt so scared
You never even looked back at me
So unaware of how cruel you could be
I was always there
Did you ever care?

Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever believe in me?
Did you ever love me?
Did you? Did you? Did you?

You didn't have to fall
I didn't need your tears
I didn't want your pity
Just any feeling at all would have been sufficient
I never felt so small, so insignificant
You left me naked with nothing at all
How could I be so blind?

Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever believe in me?
Did you ever love me?
Did you? Did you? Did you?

Falling down
Darkness surrounds me
I open my eyes
I bow my head and cry

Did you ever believe in me?
Did you ever even love me?

Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever believe in me?
Did you ever love me?
Did you? Did you? Did you?

Did you ever care for me?
Did you ever love me?

Some trailers from new moon some of which are not the official trailers. Enjoy!

Eclipse

Breaking dawn

Ahhhhh i cant wait for nov!!!!

2009-08-07T15:02:00.003+08:00

went to watch the hangover at cineleisure last night with mamat, the show is super hilarious. must go watch.

these days i always slp at 4am. i tink i got insomnia. first time national day me n mamat not planning anything. will be working afternoon shift tat day. i got a feeling i'll stuck there for dis yr xmas.

Ahhhh!!!

2009-08-06T01:06:00.001+08:00

it's just the start of the mth and i'm so tight.

spent $4 on fried rice from my hse downstair coffeeshop and tang yuan from hm. all tabao to work. Town food is freaking ex.

ladies night, i'm hm. still surviving.

do u realise when u r broke, all the new things all come out and when u feeling spending, u realise u gt no xtra cash to spend.

ahhh i'm feeling it now, it's torturing aft looking thru blogshops. tsk tsk~ help!

i'm addicted to this very sweet outdated song:

Hey Delilah - Plain White T

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

2009-08-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

oh... how cool is tat. i just blogged abt radio playing clubbing song, next thing i noe~

"Whats going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I cant see straight anymore
Keep it cool, whats the name of this club?
I cant remember but its alright, a-alright

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmmdamn cho
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just"

Lady Gaga - just dance

making me go gaga too
=~(

damn choon, maybe i shld buy 4D ltr.

2009-08-05T01:41:00.003+08:00

we got back since dunno when. really hate the on-off type of thingy. this mth i am officially eating grass. meaning no entertainment no eating good food.

Linghui ask me go Zouk cos i mentioned i'll bring her there cos she has nvr been there. plus i'm a "rebel-er" and "zouk-er" so i will be familiar with the place. told her i cant go cos last wk mummy just give "warning". so yup only can go weekend again, tot i can save money by going ladies night, now no nid to go oready lo~ if go weekends sure need to pay $$ end up spend more. Ahhhh i'm broke, so i REJECTED her.

It's Ladies Night.
I am damn tempted.
Imaging go hm sure radio got all the "shake neh neh" songs, omg die faster!

BUT!

I'm gonna be a good girl this week.

"want to go club?"
"huh wat is club, i dunno wat u toking lei. i very guai wan"

wahahahahhaaha!

shake neh neh/ shake - Go Club

i dunno how all of u can understand my "kaini-language"

2009-08-02T17:20:00.002+08:00

This is a post specially dedicated to those who has my hp contact.

Do not anyhow give my contact to anyone who i do not know.

Respect me by asking for my permission first.

i just gotten a call from True Yoga, this guy mention tat one of my fren actually recommend me this 1 week VIP course, she/he gives him my no.

how can anyone be so fucking brainless and rude. worse still dont even know manner. guess the parent din taught well.

dis is the 2nd time i encounter such thing, first was California Gym, dis time, True Yoga.

I had enough of this nonsense calls.

i am fucking not interested in all these shits!

2009-08-01T17:50:00.003+08:00

when was the last time u spend 24hr with ur love ones??

we spent half our life working so hard and we missed out on minor things. we love to provide our family so that all of us can have a better living. but truth is, money cant buy us love, time n a lil happiness. all these are irreplaceable, and yet it's often missed out.

some work hard and miss out on the growing of their kids
some work hard and miss out the time to catch up with old friends
some work hard and miss out how fast our parent has aged
some work hard and miss out the happiness of our partner
some work hard and miss out taking care of their health

one day we grow old and looked back, Are we really happy back then? wat have we missed out? wat have we accomplished?

2009-08-01T00:24:00.004+08:00

i feel tat if i'm out, there's nth holding u back.

once again i'm gonna say dis, i'm ready to fall out of the groups; family, work and fencing. they are all competitive. i feel like walking on a thread, so thin tat if one day there's a strong wind i will fall, my determination tells me to continue walking; just take the risk.

devil n angel is fighting in my brain again.

is FB status really impt? just being random

i'm feeling it.

Hang in there!

2009-07-31T12:32:00.003+08:00

just woke up. had a weird dream. scared the shit outta me.

i was pregnant,mat n me were together waiting for my turn to deliver. we make fren/saw this really fat guy. it was my turn to give birth, i dun feel pain, the feeling is like shitting. baby should be girl. she din cry like other babies, she has the super "mamat" pattern which is quiet type. den aft i give birth i show mat our baby den i saw that fat guy oso got baby den the baby is super fat too! so i ask mat " eh the baby very fat lei!" den he replied "yea lo follow father mahx". i rmb carrying her with mamat beside waiting for something but dunno wat is tat.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm................weird right?

2009-07-31T03:03:00.002+08:00

Juhong Geulshi (Scarlet letter)

anyway i was researching on some stuff den i came across this actress committed suicide due to this movie, so i decided to check it out. very weird of me watching korean movie. the movie is no link. so yup, dun be disappointed when u noe the ending.

i want to do so much thing with u asap fearing one day u might take off again.

2009-07-30T05:59:00.000+08:00

just got home from Arena and "breakfast" with my 2 grps of frens.

i'm dead tired!

Night! oops should be Morning.......

2009-07-28T22:08:00.002+08:00

Shontelle ft. Akon – Stuck with Each Other Song Words

You can think you can get free
You think you won’t need me
That you’re gonna get you somethin’ better
But you know that we’re in this forever
And you can think you can walk out
Even with your doubts
But you know that we’re in this together

You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it, baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin you can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there
Tell myself that I’ll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya
and I can try to convince you
I don’t need to be with you
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya
What can I do, love is like glue
There’s no way to
Tear us a part

Cause it’s too late (too late, too late)
There’s no escape, might as well face it
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
Ain’t nothin i can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

There’s nothing i’d rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can’t think of nothing better
Than to be stuck with you

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin I can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(Stuck in love with each other)

Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other

Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Stuck in love with each other

Ain’t nothin gonna stop me and you eh
Cause you know we just stuck like glue eh

Ain’t nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other

*decode it urself*

tml nite going to Arena. i din been there b4 so going to check it out with my colleagues. Those who went there b4 is hooked there. i dun like live band but still if i dun like can hop to Rebel. wahahahaha shoickness!

2009-07-27T23:53:00.001+08:00

Over the weekend i watch Public Enemies with mat. 2 tumbs up!!!!!

jonny depp is really good. Bye bye Black Bird!

2009-07-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

Might be just one of the fling..................

oh well, on the lighter note, i finally bought a pair of red heel!!!!!!!

2009-07-25T03:03:00.002+08:00

oh man, it's 3am and i cant slp.

lotta things running thru my peanut brain,but i dunno wat is it.
lotta things i wanna say, but i dunno how to say, i dunno how to start, dun even wat to say

i'm ok. dunno why this song "never say never" keep playing thru my head. nice lyric + song. too bad my situation is opposite.

seriously is there something wrong with me anot? dis yr bdae gonna be just me n GF i tink. loner! i really dunno how to celebrate my bdae, i planning to buy myself a bdae gift, either hearing kit, lasik or BB.

Hearing kit - ok la, i am quite deaf

Lasik- a couple of time i cant see numbers at night, i'm blind at night

BB- to be honest i dun hab a hp of my own. it sucks, i've been borrowing fone from my frens.

i see ppl got chalet for 21 bdae, open buffet at hm, dinner, club. all these like very common;

Chalet : i dunno how too entertain my frens most likely if u all noe me i'll probably say "eh help urself ah!"

Buffet at hm : omg who gonna help me clean up lei, plus my place so small.

Dinner : my bdae fall on weekday somemore on a Monday, Monday Blue. treat eat wat?

Club : i dun drink lei, how to open drink? shirley temple or root beer wan anot?

i am not surprise if i'll be staying hm and slp which i did b4.

ok my eyes is finally shutting down. night ppl!

2009-07-25T02:16:00.002+08:00

working morning shift ltr.

i'm into random movie mood but these days the movies suck. thursday i din managed to drag GF to movie cos she no mood to watch..

not clubbing dis week cos i'm still having my sore throat so if i go like not shoick lidat plus my friends either no money or else is not ard. meaning the possibility of my rotting after work is high. omg! saturday night, i'm hm early, biggest joke. *scratch me*

money faster come in la~

2009-07-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

i had a sway day.

last min got so many transactions
undercharge, end up gotta fork out $18
missed my bus
got nagged due to hp bill too high. seriously i think m1 suck. i wanna change phone line to starhub, i wanna get a BB so at least i purchase will be cheaper.
i need a new lappy, the disc part will automatic open by itself and i cant seems to burn disc due to it. my mouse click is "melting"
i need a wifi.

Argh! so many thing! no $$$$

2009-07-24T11:32:00.003+08:00

just now radio was airing one of Ne-yo song Mad.

very often i hear it in club and the next thing all the couples will glue themselves. sweet la. den i'll feel like bright lamp post, but thanks god i'm not the only lamp there.

it seems like i got the hook of blogging everyday. off to work!

(Ne-yo) Mad

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking
Ummm Nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming (Oooo)
And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,
all that that means is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting

It's all for nothing (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing, (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for)
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed, mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Umm
and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing
(asking questions like you already know)
hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing
(this ain't the way that love is supposed to go, what happened to working it out?)
We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down,
so what the hell do we do now?

It's all for nothing (fighting for)
nothing, (crying for)
nothing... (oohh)

When we won't let it go for nothing,
nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got oh baby

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)

Oh baby this love ain't gone be perfect, (perfect perfect oh no)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright between us before we go to sleep...

Baby we're gonna be...

Yah.... Baby....

ohhhh....ohhhh

I know sometimes it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no I don't want to go to bed mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo, nooo, noo)

2009-07-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

The Fray - never say never

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

2009-07-23T11:45:00.003+08:00

break up

Verb

1. to separate or cause to separate

2. to put an end to (a relationship) or (of a relationship) to come to an end

3. to dissolve or cause to dissolve: the meeting broke up at noon

4. Brit (of a school) to close for the holidays

just woke up, i dunno why suddenly i go look for tat words. here's a question, specially catered to those ppl in a relationship.

Q:How often do u use the words "break up"?
A:i dun rmb saying this word at all or maybe once on october? aiya cant rmb.

These words will either causes pain or happiness, super crucial words. i believe there are ppl misuse it to solve small or big arguments with their partner. if u r one of them who r misusing it, pls STOP using the words. u dunno how much hurt u r causing them. den end up ur relationship become on/off/on/off.

To me, break up is a very pow-der-ful words. i promised myself ever not to anyhow used this words. i did not use it no matter how sad/exhausted/giving up/fustrasted i was, it's like running a 800m race.

training is tough; on competition day itself; running during competition is tough, how often i feel like giving up but yet i manage to pull thru. telling myself "aiya, no turning back lei, just run la. can do it wan."

yet... i was a victim of it. occasionally this words will appear in my relationship during big arguments. i used to rush to see him wanting to solve everything, cry cry cry. those normal stuffs. i did all these silly stuffs cos i believe there's still hope in this whole relationship. all the time i was taken back by him. it's like a pathetic lost n found pet wanting an owner to adopt it. maybe in his point of view is tat, " she know as long she cry,i will crawl back to her."

Here's a draft of wat happened this time (for more info, pls ask him, dont ask me. i think his is more accurate? this is basically on how i feel.)

ever since saturday i been giving cold shoulder, wat happen on saturday was GF and i went to butter fact to met GF's Fren but surprisingly his Frens were there too, i seriously dunno his Frens were there till i saw em, told him. ltr tat night was being ordered to go hm cos he feel uncomfortable. his thinking was if GF n Gf's fren dance together, it will be only me n the rest of Gf's Fren's fren. truth is i'm stuck with GF all the time even though they were dancing together, and no, i dun even noe/communicate with the rest of the fellas. the whole picture to mi is, even if he dun trust my GF to take care of mi, at least confident in me tat i can take care of myself, which he din have tat sort of confident. i think, Him n only He himself can protect mi ONLY. WTF! i was super bu shuang. i try to fight back but got tired of all the explaination to him so coldwar just continue.

monday, i happen to see his colleague. so me n this person went hunting for mop n pail cos i was super free busy rotting in shop, end up din manage to find a cheap ones. TAT'S IT. i din told him cos i am very tired of explaining myself so i let him find out himself. so yes, he found out and asked me, ltr tat nite he warn me to beware of tat person. all the time i reply him was 1 word. this time, i dun wanna play along with him, i dun wanna fight for myself anymore, tat's the reason why i reply 1 word, there's nth more for me to say, i'm innocent and no point telling me abt tat person cos he doesnt make any impact on me AT ALL, why shld i get bothered by it? u like to think den think lo.

so i was bu shuang regarding this so i go provoke him, den aft much clarification and my 1-word reply, the words is casted. well, to me my reaction was "Wah, not AGAIN." den followed by " if tat's wat u wan, den go ahead lo, there's nth i can do, u happy can liao."

he feel tat he cant ctrl me anymore n dunno how to be with me. plus he got enough of me partying my life away so he hope i can find another guy cos he is not following my direction. he dunno how to take care of me. and he wanna be by himself.

here's a random question,

Q: is true tat those ppl going party are not grown up?
A: to me, it's up to individual, i go club so often cos i really like the feel of the music there n the crowd there. it's like everyone got lost in the music tgt. it's the ambrience tat i really like it. so therefore if 1 wk i dun go club i'll get super itchy lol. look at one of my fren like uncle james, he oso got club lo, he's 30+++ got kids got family, he still go club, is he not grown up?

Anyway, back to the draft:

Normally, i'll feel bu shuang den become such a man n chase him, while chasing very often i'll cry like no tml. but then now, i din chase or even cry like a rain, i feel i didnt do anything wrong, i feel i really done my best and try to make thing work in my relationship, i really tried.......... .

seriously, wat is wrong with me?
could it be "break up" has become so normal that i dun feel a single thing, in another word, numb?
is it i'm really giving up?

The END.

looking back, i rmb recent case abt he n the goverment high gal. just cheeky msg between both, i managed to handle well, i din say the words, cos i still love him and i cant let go of us so i tried to solve it using a lighter note. and i din mention dis case till now in this lil space of mine. if situation were another way round, i will have been reminded countless time and i'll be treated like a murdering case suspect, in the way, tons of questions i will need to answer. And worse Death sentence straight away.

the worst thing is there was once there's a rash on my neck, he tot it was lovebite, he become ngeh. how hurtful is it, i explained and he's still not convinced. i would say aft dis incident, i really changed. i find it useless to explain thing to make myself innocent. it's no point explaining n fighting for myself. my own (ex)BF dont even trust me.

losting trust is the worst thing ever. imaging watever u say u dunno he/she will trust u anot and when they are not convinced, u gotta keep on explaining and it hurts most when ppl close to u dun trust u and has doubt in u. seriously, it's a mental war for me. i dunno how i managed to survive in this war for so long.

Now, i've officially lost a war. this war is exhausting for us especially i'm the more hack care and wild type of person.

This war i would say it's a win-win situation, w/o me, he has 1 less major commitment. he can focus more on his work, fencing n family. he will be happier, alot more happy and less stress for him. he can finally shift all the stress to his work, i can tell he really wan to do well in his career more than anything else. i rmb we ever tok abt it, he more of the money making person wanting more n more so it will make him work harder but for me i want a simple life, just stable income and a shelter to cover me i'm cool abt it. i dun wanna stay in a condo/private hse. i dun staying at hdb, both type of standard of living is actually the same all of us just want a shelter to cover our head, the matter is u wan it bigger or smaller. i knew i was the main problem, i knew i was the one most likely to fall out of the catergories of his life. which is one of the reason why i stop chasing

Through these 3 years 4 mths, there's lotta ups n down. we fighted and we laughed. lotta beautiful memories compared to nasty memories. if i say tat i dun miss u or love u is fake lo. 3 years of relationship lei how can it gone just lidat.

i missed you smelling my head as though u r choosing a durian.
i missed toking cock with you on the fone every single night since ur NS days.
i missed cutting ur long toe nails and secretly chop off the hair of ur toes
i missed ur slpy smell
i missed calling u using my shop fone whenever i'm bored
i missed bragging how sucky my working life
i missed u appearing out of nowhere and tapao food for me
i missed us having dinner at ah ma place tat's where u will steal the duck and vegetables
i missed us toking on bed
i missed u calling me and says "sawadeep krab" though it sound very bapok
i missed ur shoulder
i missed u flabbing ur muscle whenever u see mirror
i missed u looking thru the mirror and start making ur hair
i missed the inner undertaker in u
i missed raping u
i missed ur si-lang-min (one ass-irritated look)
i missed u satisfying my craving
i missed the countless slpover
i missed the countless Malaysia trips n thailand
i missed all the CNYs,Hari Raya, Sending papa/babe hm/overseas
i missed u sticking out ur tongue
i missed you saying "love ya"

i still miss u n love u, and dont say "silly pig."

why do we end up lidat? guess we dont have a choice and there's nth we can do. we had enough of our bad points. u will be able to find a better partner in future.

thanks for being there when i need u.
thanks for being there when i want u.
thanks for being with me.....

2009-07-23T01:31:00.003+08:00

Jordin Sparks - battlefield

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your

~~We could pretend that~~ we are friends tonight
(Oh, oh, oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and ~~we'll be alright~~
~~'Cause baby, we don't have to fight~~
And I don't want this love to feel like

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
(Fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor

Why does love always feel like?
Why does love always feel like?
A battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for

2009-07-23T00:17:00.002+08:00

just got hm aft pass him all his stuffs.

coughing my lungs out. remove makeup den saw i got swollen eye. u noe dis thingy called "Ba Chime" ? den i saw dis pus mark, so i went to squeeze it den the pus explode. still there's still a bit left din managed to squeeze out. now i look like i got single eyelid on 1 side and another double eyelid. -_-||

got an interview ltr. die faster liao.

i'm a bit hungry now, shld i date my maggi mee again? maybe i shld hang on to ltr.

i'm kinda immune to my Full shifts. weird to get an off but still i'm so fucking looking forward. gonna rot one whole day den go interview.

i feel like going back Toa Payoh to look for tat sinseh, seriously sometime my ankle still hurt

i got the msg thru my head yet i'm calm, super calm. maybe i "prepared" for it or maybe i just cant be bothered? weird weird weird. ok la, i miss bragging n toking cock on the fone.

2009-07-22T00:56:00.001+08:00

it's over.

you will always be my best boyfriend no doubt u r the best colleague, son or fren. u will excel in everything.

This will be a release for u.

Bye.

tired of chasing. aint gonna chase.
u r right, i'm always wrong. remember?

2009-07-21T23:00:00.004+08:00

Throat super itchy today. can someone help scratch?

Anyway last nite while i was slping some fly/bug bit me. NB! damn itchy lo. bite me 2 times on the same arm, directly parallel to each other, the fly/bug damn accurate lo.

i just got my first 21st bdae present from my nice aunt, she is way too early. suddenly i feel like an old fuck. she bought me Coach coin purse, gold colour.Though is not the one that i wan but appreciate it la. hahaha my 1st Branded stuff. Wohoo~!!!!

7 wks left!

2009-07-21T00:46:00.003+08:00

i'm fucking dunno wat mood i'm in. i just nid to rant OUT LOUD.

i wish a part of me has video cam and recorder. so you can monitor every single movement of me when i club.

Standard Procedures:

Any guys touch you?

No

Any Guys try to hook u up?

No

U sure?

Yes

Things was worse last saturday @ Butter Fact. went down with xi to look for her boo, just go over there to accompany her. Q from 12.20am-1.45am, was surprised to see other xtra guys, those were boo's frens. so i let him know. i dunno even noe boo's frens' name. didnt even danced with em, din even like butter fact.

Club close at 4am tat day i tot of going back at 330am. guess wat? i need to reach hm by 330am to report. wat a joke, Q so long end up stay there for 1.5hr, i hope i can get refund of $23. NBCCB.

my role of the night was to accompany my gf. i was with her thru out the whole thing but still he thinks too much tat if gf n her fren danced den the rest of the 5 unknown guys will danced with me. FOR WAT FUCK THEY DANCED WITH ME???!!!! I DIDNT EVEN TOK TO THEM. cant expect me to see extra ppl den go hm mahx. like WTF. i wanna go there enjoy with gf end up screw it! i can fucking take care of myself can? if i cant, i probably fuck ard and probably got so drunk long time back. nb.

i understand i was being ordered to go back cos u felt uncomfortable with 5 unknown guys assuming they will danced with me, but fuck la. u r not there to see to verify so watever i say is a piece of shit. so why ppl just cant fucking invented a video vest. cb. u look/sound silly, u look/sound like a fool. as for me, i'm just playing with u, u happy can liao.

I am i being ACCUSED AGAIN?

Seriously, i'm a strong believer tat honesty is not the best policy in the relationship. whenever i says tat i'll still tell him every single thing. i guess one day i must master a skill called " Silent is the best medicine".

it's irritating when here i am telling u everything but still get screw. i had enough. say oso screw, nvr say oso screw. CB. which is the best solution?

rash can be lovebite *faint* Worst thing i ever heard and worst feeling ever after 3 yrs. even Bf/Gf can say tat, wat's worst than tat? bring it on.

oh ya. thanks for being protective, not being sacastice. but this is super scary, i hate it

2009-07-16T00:38:00.003+08:00

ok this post is gonna be so fucking random.

But, if u are Muslim who take HALAL food only, pls click close window, cos my current post is Non-Halal.

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Last night, i dreamt of bak kwa; BBQ Pork.

So my conversation with mummy was like:

Me: mummy, i dreamt of something weird.
Mum: What you dream?
Me: I dreamt of bak kwa!
Mum: *laugh* i think u really want to eat that, buy 500g lor!
Me: yea la, since few mths back till now i tell u i want to eat lei. dont wanna buy la, so ex lo.

*wah imaging bak kwa kiap between bread. Wahhhhhhh!!! delicious!!!! =P~*

2009-07-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

i'm back to square.

Whenever i was there, i feel tat i'm wasting my time. i start feeling emo. this is not wat i will want to do.

AYG has ended, why am i still here?

Totally different environment.

no stairs that lead me to the room of progress.

Each day passed, the longer i stayed there the more i feel even more useless..

i want to move on.

2009-07-12T12:31:00.002+08:00

So tat's my BBF, AYG is finally over meet alot of new ppl, and i became very roasted. i been wanting to blog just tat the freaking connection is slow. yesterday went to watch stef sun concert with gf. i actually watch her rehersal on friday so i roughly know what is gonna happen on saturday, the only different between the 2 days is that she sang xtra song on the actual day.

2009-07-01T23:46:00.002+08:00

1st day of event, things went well, DVM and i cant click, think i'm too blur for her, not her fault. dont mean to piss her off. maybe i really shldnt do event, i'm not cut out for this area. i got emo on the way to clement place even when i reach his place for meeting, i gave tat "bubu look", trying to act like nothing wrong, till once i step in to perry's car, i exploded.

time n again, i tell myself dont make this mistake it seems like i'm being push down. i wanna get up and walk. todae i fell, i got a deep cut. but i know there is no turning back, i have to walk thru it till sunday, i dun hab a choice. i MUST pick myself up no matter wat.

Tommorroe will be a better day........

i hope...........

2009-06-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

wednesday

Was Drunk but i was aware of wat's happening.

As of today i'll be going down to sentosa every single day for my event. i think i'm gonna go MIA soon.

Lying on my bed now, radio keep playing clubbing songs, how to resist? no club for next week. =(

2009-06-18T00:22:00.003+08:00

to those ppl out there that might not know me/new to my blog or new to me:

just a brief introduction abt myself

My name is kaini, i'm turning 21 in less than 3 mths time, gonna officially enter the adulthood.i am currently attached. i may be naive but im not that childish.

Definitions

naive:
having or showing unaffected simplicity of nature or absence of artificiality; unsophisticated; ingenuous.
having or showing a lack of experience, judgment, or information; credulous
having or marked by a simple, unaffectedly direct style reflecting little or no formal training or technique
not having previously been the subject of a scientific experiment, as an animal.

childish:
refers to characteristics that are undesirable and unpleasant ; applied to persons who are grown up, is in a disparaging sense; as, a childish temper.

(continue)

I staying at Dover the WEST side of the island, not much nice food can be found here, recently i took unpaid leave from my company (crabtree & evelyn) for abt 6weeks to join an event company that actually getting involve with Asia Youth Games 2009, that is the 1st game gonna hold here in our sunny humid island, singapore. everyday must report work 9am. meaning i must slp by 11pm.

my office located at national stadium (kallang). rmb i mention i staying at west? so everyday i will wake up around 7.20am, leave my hse by 7.40am must board 7.45am bus, i take either 14 or 196 from my place, Dover directly alight at nicoll highway. everyday the whole journey take me abt 1 hr to reach that bus stop and abt 10-15mins walk so total will be 1hr 15mins to reach using 1 direct transport my workplace.

so some might suggest how abt taking train?
well.... i'll have to take 14,166,74 either one of the bus to Dover train station it will take approximately 5mins that is if it comes straight away i reach bus stop. walked up to the station wait for train would most likely take abt 6mins, the journey from Dover to kallang station is 24mins. after alighting i will need to change to bus 11, think it will take abt 10-15min to reach stadium bus stop and walking to office might take another 5mins. so total will be 55mins to reach using 3 different transports to workplace.

if u were me, which ways will u use??

(continue)

i am not the type who take breakfast not even drink warm milo or cold milk to start of my day. if i do, i'll bomb the toilet and have really bad tummy ache. since i dun take breakfast why shld i even go for breakfast if my colleagues, yes i can drink something sit down tok rubbish, but did i mention tat i dont even eat and drink, if wanna tok rubbish, while working we oso talk rubbish ma... oh btw, my middle name is not stamford raffles of kallang. I am not willing to sacrifice my slp just to go for something tat is not tat impt to me, i rather i slp more so i wun look like zombie the next day, i wanna look fresh.

after work, normally i get really tired cos i dun have any work to do/ i have finished my work/ thinking of the long journey back, so therefore if u call my fone at 6.35pm onward to 7.15pm, i wun be picking up cos i'm dead aslp in the bus. i cant wait to go hm to rest. yea, sometime after work i do mit my BF or my BFF up to catch up, pls note we mit at vivo or town but we dont slack too long, most of the time we will go hm aft 1hr or 2hrs. if u expect me to mit u aft work at the east side, i'll automatically reject u. yes indeed i'm working at the east, nearer if mit at east and coincidentedly u stay at the north or east area, but have you ever consider abt me? i am west, rmb? is it fair? are u willing to send me hm? personally, i feel if u wanna mit me at central of singapore, trust me, i'll consider abt going. it's really a joke to make me travel to east and make me go hm myself and oso to make me travel to east so early in the morning. i understand that it might be more convenient for u, but please think in term of me. do u really think it is convenient for me? come on, without me the show must go on,not as if someone will pass away rite? i noe it's abt a team-bonding but we can bond during work rite? after work i have to carry on my personal life. dont forget i see u frm monday to friday, 9+am to 6pm, no enough ah?

Main Point:

I would never step to east/north unless i have transport/interview/chalet.
i'm not being spoilsport

GET IT?

2009-06-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

i am awfully quiet..........

2009-06-14T17:04:00.002+08:00

Club on both friday night n saturday nite, fri was rebel not much ppl saturday zouk as usual is packed.

went beach yesterday main purpose is to go siloso take photos of the place den show to my CHIJ volunteers but forget to bring camera n floor plan. luckily jun han suggests he sends the photos but i have yet to recieve it lei.

As of next week, i'm gonna be freaking busy with tons of meeting n following up. the thought of going back to my retail job is super draggy. there goes my brain juice again, this current temp job really make me feel like i'm doing something productive which i really like it =)

i've been craving for boon lay market nasi lemak damn long! i'm gonna go eat there one day

and friday went to watch drag me to hell with BFF @ VVC, normally i'll luff at those ugly monsters/ghosts this time i swear i really jump out of my seat! fucking gd show if u wanna date a girl

2009-06-11T20:06:00.003+08:00

i'm considering to rent car from 30th June to 5 July. does anyone noe where can i get cheap rental? a few pointers to note

Car : Hyundai Getz
Rental Locations : West; West Coast, Clementi, Commonwealth, Alexandra

So if u any just tag me on the tag box.

2009-06-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

Over the last weekend,

Friday

me n mamat rented a Hyundai Getz from friday evening to monday evening. at first mamat dun approved of renting due to me still a noob on road; the way i drive not power most importantly i havent learn how to park.

so we picked up e car @ yew tee, after tat i drove us to petrol station den try to find our way back to my place to pick up my stuff cos staying over his place tat night. after tat he drove us to his place, 1st time mamat drive auto cos most of the time he drives manual car. he picked up very fast. impressed! brought koropok lekor over tat night so his mom can cook for me.

Saturday

Woke up super early ard 5am-5.30am, kelvin drove me n mamat auto car while mamat drove his family manual car to pick up his papa @ airport. after papa touched down, he n mom go eat, leaving me, mamat,chic n kelvin. chic n kelvin took a cab back together with papa's lugguage, i drove us back to his place.

Seriously it's kinda scary cos i nvr drive to far place b4 and most importantly i nvr try driving in the day cos last time i drove Andrian car is usually wee morning abt 2am-3am. So tat was my first time. pretty impressed with myself la.

Reach his place, mamat suggest to order mac breakfast, i continue my beauty slp till abt 10 plus i woke up n send him to work despite the fact tat he keep urging me to send him to dover mrt so i can cont to slp thru. of cos tat didnt happen, so i sent him to work n drove myself home, luckily the radio was playing all those songs i noe if not i dunno if i will dozed off while driving anot.

Reach my place, went to continue my slp till my BFF called me. i woke up earlier than i expected cos i'll be busy the whole afternoon.

i head to temple to fetch my mum send her back, drop by ah ma place to pass her duck. den back to Sentosa to do my site visiting/research (gan chiong Spider), pack the car @ BFF hotel cos free packing mahx den took yellow bus down to beach station took tram to siloso, start to observe the way how things is being held, actually i didnt expect it to be so messy. aft research, go back hotel, drove BFF n Maria to their changing rm den aft tat gave BFF friend a lift to vivo. we head to Cathay, try to find out way thru n managed to find carpark. BFF gone gaga for tat rainbow bear, went walk walk, met up with mamat, go eat dinner n send him to his office to put his stuff den we head to sentosa again.

couldnt find any lots at hotel so BFF suggest another carpark. it is super ulu, n i swear i nvr goin to park there at nite, its freaking dark, quiet n creepy. the road is just for 1 way, meaning drive in or out must use tat road. I HATE DARK PLACE!

we go walk walk from palawan to siloso n back to palawan, think we can really burn off lotta fats.

sent BFF back den we drove to MAC den back to my place to unload my stuff, mamat drove us hm. i slp over

Sunday

Drove down to Cathay to check out his event. den we drove to Airport to kill time. after tat mamat drove to changi village cos we meeting mom,papa,chic n kelvin there for seafood dinner. it's a filling dinner. i drove us to ah ma place to pick up stuffs n back hm. mamat left with parent n chic.

Monday

super nervous cos i'm driving alone n noone nagging beside me, drove to work luckily i didnt got lost. had potluck with the EMs. one day, i'll intro em in my blog. i brainwash bro to go yew tee with me, go pick him up den dropby school to let him pass his project den let him drive to yew tee. we were lost end up at bukit panjang. Returned the car.

Byebye car! will miss u =)

2009-06-02T10:51:00.003+08:00

Currently i'm working at national stadium for abt 1 mth as an event manager for Asia Youth Games 2009. i'm taking charge of Beach Volleyball Event happening @ Siloso Beach on 1st July, gonna be a roasted pig.

i might not be able to run here on my 800m final 4years back but here i am now working just beside it. Shoickness!!!

Here are the photos tat i took @ zouk.

Above (Left to Right) : Lady GaGa, Britney, Vanilla & Florida

Above (Left to Right) : Britney, Lady GaGa, Florida & Vanilla

2009-05-31T03:47:00.002+08:00

Friday

Went to Zouk with mamat n xi. music sux. ppl sux. all not high. mocktail Drinks gained!

Saturday

Went to St James cos firstly lingy feel a bit left out n plus i'm interested in checking out tat club. music not too bad.

i'm seriously crazy with myself

2009-05-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

i just accomplished my goal in the wrong time but i've made it!

ran from Dover(my place) to Mamat place(taman jurong), i wonder how many clicks.

Shoickness!

sorry xi n mat, i scared the shit out of both of u

2009-05-27T02:11:00.000+08:00

ok so i lost the bet.

he rmb! cool la~

Zouk here i come!

2009-05-26T21:32:00.002+08:00

Few days back, he asked if i'm free on the 29th to go attend his event thingy

So here's the bet:

Will he jio me out? or not? will he rmb ? or not?

my bet is: he wun jio me to follow him cos he forget.

Stay tuned!

2009-05-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

Day 2 : Friday

as usual, woke up late. in th elate evening Went to RetroBar to chill out, the place is very cool.

Day 3: Saturday

Steamboat @ La Mei Zi off beach road, tom yam n ma la really spicy. after which Played soccer for a short while @ fisco jurong till 3am of cos i got "kissed" by the soccer ball for few seconds i tot i saw angels,birds and stars above me.

Day 4: Sunday

Sentosa with mat, watch movie.

Monday

Back to work a bit lost but still ok la. quiet day, after ita n siti left, start packing everything.

i'm getting annoy with my hair extension cos it got all tangle up n the weather at night is like sauna. maybe i shld take out my extension and DIY dye my hair to light blonde.

2009-05-22T01:30:00.003+08:00

Wednesday

Party @ butter factory. lotta youngsters. lotta pretty gals. think the club is pretty so-so. reach hm @ 4am.

Starting my 4 days off straight

Day 1: Thursday

woke up ard 4.40pm. slack a while till late evening. mit up with mamat to accompany him buy router. head to ming kia to try their lasagna but left onli those i dun eat n mamat cant eat so end up @ soup spoon for dinner. send him back hm and left shortly.

as of 1st june i wun be working there, i'll be involved in Asia Youth Games as a event manager till 8 july. hopefully it will be a new learning experience for me. may there will be more opportunities coming my way cos i really dun wanna stay @ crabtree anymore. i'm happy working at crabtree but i really nid to progress myself. =)

2009-05-14T14:32:00.001+08:00

i'm so sick lo. flu, headache m swollen eye. how lucky am i dis whole 3 wks~ =(

2009-05-10T03:41:00.003+08:00

NOTE: PICTURE POSTED IS STRICTLY NOT FOR FAINT-HEART

My pig leg!

*After Bandage*

Right ankle:

Left leg:

MOST Disgusting Parts coming up

*without bandage*

Spot the difference:

left leg:

CLOSE UP:

wahahahaha. told u it's disgusting~!

2009-05-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

anyway to cut thing short,

i had a bad fall while boarding the bus, blood rushing down like free of charge on my left leg, sprain my right ankle AGAIN.

bf helps buy tissue n wet tissue

bf saw how deep my wound

he fainted in bus

give me a shock of my life looking at him turned pale

bus down to west coast to eat

reach hm

still bleeding while i'm washing my wound

WALA~!!!!

2 PIG LEGS!

2009-05-04T03:44:00.004+08:00

had 2 weekend off,

Saturday,

hang out with andrian, jinda, jonathan, apple chilling/clubbing. we checked out Rebel for the first time. well, music not tat gd, overall can make it =) it reminds me of ex-MOS. all of us being mountain turtle, found out actually the chop mark for Rebel can entitle us to 3 clubs; Zirca, Rebel & Lunar.

Reached home ard 5.30am, slp ard 7am.

next weekend maybe going Butter Factory with Mat & his friends for bdae celebration i think.

Sunday,

suppose to go my aunt's father place for steamboat, end up din turn up cos i woke up damn late. mat cooked dinner for us. his rice taste nicer than mine, gravy sauce(instant japanese curry) can be improve n nugget, shoickness!

recently, my ticket for stefanie sun arrived, bought kelly clarkson latest album. =)

listened to all kelly clarkson songs and currently i'm hooked to:

Cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that i don't hear them talk
Whenever i see you, i'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yet what do i care
If they believe me or not
Whenever i feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend i'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away?

Is it over yet
Can i open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry, cry

All i ever wanted (currently playing in my blog now)

Tear up the photographs
But yesterday won't let go
Every day, every day, every minute
Here comes the emptiness
Just can't leave lonely alone
Every day, every day, hey hey
This second-chancin's really getting me down
You give and taking everything I dreamed about
It's time you let me know, let me know just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone
Don't wanna chase you around
Every day, every day, every minute
I'd fall a thousand times
Before I let you drag me down
Every day, every day, hey hey
Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling
we've already been here before
It's time you let me know, let me know just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

Tell me with so many out there
Why I always turn to you
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

2009-04-28T15:40:00.003+08:00

i din manage to go tanning todae cos i woke up really late. anyway, it's raining now, so seems like i'm fated not to go.

right now i'm stuck at home not knowing wat to do ltr.

maybe i should watch all the dvd tat i bought.

i'm still craving for indian rojak, but i'm broke. i think in order to survive these day i'll have to cook at home and bring it to work.

still, i din recieved any reply from any company, i guess i just gotta keep trying. anyone heard of the song "One step at a time" by jodin spark? seriously it reminding me to relax, it will comes just need time. hmmmmmmmmmmm...............................................

oh stefanie sun is having concert on 11 july. bought tix oready, xi is tagging along! i cant bring my bf cos he might not understand a single thing. wohoo~ 2 concert within 7mths, how "Rich" am i?

2009-04-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

last night, i am not myself after i reached home.

been thinking

thinking

thinking

&

thinking.

wat the hell is wrong with me.

i just got hm from work 1 hr ago, i din claim OT cos i dun mind n plus co. wouldnt pay us they're trying to cut cost i guess. one whole day no appetite only eat bread(mamat bought) n later in e evening LJS 2 pieces chicken.

i've been keeping things to myself knowing tat i deserved the treatment.
i thought to myself "kaini, just shut up la!"

i seriously have no mood/appetite, i want to be alone.
(definitely not PMS)
for now

2009-04-23T04:26:00.003+08:00

i'm still up @ dis hr cos i just watch finish Marley & Me. now i finally understand why xi cry. anyway, i'm going to my 3rd hm (palawan) agn. gonna go roast myself =)

2009-04-22T00:01:00.002+08:00

i'm currently looking for Promotion/Branding/Marketing jobs, so if u have any to recommend , do not hesitate to drop me a mail at

zhenkaini@gmail.com

thanks alot!

2009-04-21T01:44:00.001+08:00

sucks when u sent out resumes like water but none replied =(

2009-04-19T23:11:00.002+08:00

over the weekend i stayed over at mat's place. i got to eat his mumy lotong n i slp ALOT. according to chic n mat, i slp as though i'm posing for ANTM.

we left for maxie bdae @ loyang in the late evening. i tink i'm in love with the dog.

2009-04-17T11:03:00.002+08:00

slp at 5am dis morning, super slpy all thanks to my dog which woke me up. nb.
i cooked lunch for mamat gonna deliver it to him ltr den most likely hitting down the beach for a while den go back ah ma place agn.

i'm off for 2 days after working for 7 days straight. going to camp over at mat place ltr aft 3 mths? misses his mum lontong, yummy~!

2009-04-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

i did a crazy thing yesterday nite.

i jog from home to tanjong pagar to pick up mat after school lol.

Mission Completed!

i dunno whr to go ltr. after todae off, i'm gonna work like mad dog again, 7 days straight wohoo~ xiong!

2009-04-07T02:22:00.003+08:00

I've been eyeing on this,

Parker Op Art French Purse, STYLE NO: 42457

OMG! damn nice can. i'm gonna save up for this!

2009-04-06T18:37:00.003+08:00

i'm so bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whole day i was searching for jobs but end up with nth.

i wanna go out but i dunno go where. i hate SG so small.

nb. 1 day wasted just lidat

2009-04-06T03:24:00.002+08:00

once again, i'm hooked by America's Next Top Model Cycle 12.

2009-04-03T01:19:00.003+08:00

ok. ppl, i need help!!

SMS FHM4GND62(space)YourName(space)Your NRIC(space)Your Email to 73388.

Voting ends in End April! Thanks hor~

2009-04-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

i have emotion outburst now. seriously.

2009-04-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

i'm in my thinky mode aft ita n siti left home.

why am i doing these things?

mamat noe tat i'm emo, aft work we go soup spoon n taka outside to tok. yes, he enlighten me. but it's a part time thing. how abt full time?

i'm interested in marketing, staying at where i am, dun often require brain juice. i think my brain is rusty due to being in the comfort zone for long. not cos i din look for it, it's more like i send out my resume, nth come back.

at this point, i feel like useless.

thank god i have him who can listens n comments.

2009-04-02T02:46:00.002+08:00

oh yesterday was 1st April (April Fool Day)

i rmb exactly 7years ago, i recieved a brillant April Fool "Present"

1/4/02

tt day was a weekday-school day-strait times day, as usual, i was carrying 2 sets of strait times, 1 for me another for my-then-bf. like any other morning, i will mit him den go sch together. i boarded 196 and alight at AYE 1 stop b4 clementi stadium.

there was this ZEBRA CROSSING, i've checked that there was no car driving up, so while i was happily crossing the zebra crossing halfway, suddenly, at the corner of my eye, i saw this Comfort Taxi. i tot it might stop since i'm half way walking. But........................................
the next thing i noe,

Boom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!

i flew like a "superman", and ended up with a "long jump" position.

i black out or blank (watever u call tat), when i opened my eyes, i saw 1 uncle running from the bus stop to me, of cos the taxi driver was too scared to drive away. he screwed tat driver and demanded to send me to the nearest hospital.

this driver quickly come down n checked if i'm ok, den suggest me to take a ride on his taxi n send me to hospital.

instead, i was stupid, i asked him to send me to sch. -_-!!!!!!!!

i went to my hse master to let him noe i cant take part in events cos i met an accident. he looked up n down, seriously tat time i dun looked like i just met an accident, but i was limping a bit. he faster tell Mr Tham, tat was when, i went back class, my form teacher asked me to pack my bag cos my mummy n auntie heard abt my accident, they rushed down to pick me up go see doc.

mummy acc me to clementi polyclinic for checkup, the doc look up n down agn, try to use paper clip to poke my leg to test if i can feel anything. i can but a bit numb lo. the doc didnt prescribe any medicine for me lo.

went hm with a 1 day MC.

TADAR~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

End of my April Fool Celebration.
Dammit i'm gonna rmb this till i'm in my coffin.

2009-04-01T02:43:00.002+08:00

i've been addicted to black and white photos since god-knows-when. i like the way how the picture turn out. =)

2009-03-31T00:07:00.001+08:00

i'm finally off after working for 6 days straight. thinking of going tanning/baking muffin @ ah ma place ltr. orh maybe i shld just rot and watch dvd. hmmm

2009-03-28T23:20:00.003+08:00

yesterday @ Zirca was alright. managed to see some familiar faces so not tat lost. thanks mamat n xi for coming down.

still, i'm keeping it low profile =)

so many to do now, it's saturday nite and i'm not going out. 1st time after so long i'm home early on the weekend.

i'm gonna go do my laundry now!

Cheers

2009-03-26T02:44:00.001+08:00

i'm still hunting for a better cheese.

old cheese turning bad.....

2009-03-23T00:33:00.002+08:00

yesterday went lunch with mamat family.

ltr is finally Coldplay Concert!

wohoo~ shoickness.

i wanted to be low profile, is it still low profile now?